Some truth that I learned while having a 2 hr blissful facial.......I was there and having the works with a beautiful lady, doing her passion, in her element, she just loved to be doing.....providing the beautiful environment for herself and her clients to enjoy, the steaming, the massage, the masks, the heavenly scented flower essences, and somewhere in it, me growing in realisation more & more, it is such a lovely gift to have a physical body to be enjoying and experiencing such a relaxing, loving treatment! Oppostite to the feelings of error, from experiences as a child in the sense that I wanted to escape my body, and go into the spirit world as a refuge, as often as I could, not really understanding the gift of what a body is (mentioned in previous posts )
My life's addiction, wanting to avoid how I feel when people are projecting their negative feelings, like anger, judgment, jealousy, blame, fears, that have entered into my damaged soul and the denial of experiencing how it feels to be me in this moment, staying in the fear & the "guilt" cycle, feeling that I am to blame, causing physical damage to my body as I get older and stay in the denial, rather than feeling my grief. To run & hide to the only place I could get to easily, to get away from the "scarey" feelings, experiencing the spirit world by jumping out of my body, rather than staying in my body, feeling my feelings and feeling and that support that my guides can give to me while I am still in my body!!!!! I don't have to keep running away!!!!!!
I want to stay in my body, to inhabit it myself, in my own drivers seat, I don't have to have another spirit ready to take the wheel, at any momnet, cause they miss having a body, and I don't apprectiate mine. My feelings aren't so bad, they haven't killed me, I feel relieved, in fact blissful & joyful when I connect with God's Truth & Love! Actually I want to live, and enjoy my life!!! Every breath is a gift!
And what a beautiful way to learn more in my heart about different spirits.... I will only go to a person who I feel that the spirits with them are of good intent, have experienced some harm in the past from going against my intuition. I still had the residue of fear of harm, dubious about having hands on treatment, not from the facial, but some reiki that was offered to me (from reiki spirits ) I am learning to trust in my intuition more as to being aware of what spirits that I feel with people, and that are around generally. I have also been judgemental about some healing spirits in the past, and that they may be trying to portray themselves as God. (“I am “ type spirits )
I had one spirit that dug into my toe, a bit like something plugging into me, to get my attention (a spirit who did not know much about loving ways yet) I had some beautiful healing spirits connect with me through my feelings and mention to me (reminding me) to connect with my own Guides and to also mention that to the lovely lady who was so intent with her massaging. I felt the reiki spirits giving of their reiki, which I could choose for it to go over me like a blanket and to blot out my feelings, or I could choose to just keep connecting with myself and my feelings and experience all that there was for me to feel. I could feel the lady’s other guides, a soulmate pair that love to help and teach others about healing, I could feel my celestial Guides there with their love for me. There were a variety of spirits there with me, I was able to still keep in my own body, feel the difference between all the different types of spirits, feel the lovely lady who was a channel for the reiki, and pass on to her some words from the loving guides about love, reiki, & “trying” , that you don’t need to try, or the reiki, really, just to be open to love.
When a spirit, or person is offering love to me, why would I refuse their hug, their gift to me that they freely want to give to me! They freely told me that they were not trying to portray themselves as God, I was easily able to feel the difference between the feeling of their love and God’s love, as testament to what they were telling me! At one moment the words to such a lovely song that all of a sudden was sung by an angelic lady’s voice, only for that particular moment, were about “thousands of Angels”, and I had wanted to hold onto my struggle, of how I had been treated by a minority of some unloving spirits!!!! This belief in me just disintergrated!!!!!
Wow, in all of this, I was being taught so many beautiful lessons about love and spirits, and how my fear has controlled my life, as in when I am afraid of one type of spirit that I have had bad experiences with, that constricts my soul from being able to benefit from the loving influence the ability to listen to the loving guides that I have with me, my freewill choices, are clouded by my fear, and at the soul level, I then choose to be wary and afraid of any spirits.
My celestial guides can only help in a limited way, until my will changes! In the tearful realisation of this and the grief of how I have refused the help of loving spirits for a long time now, and how much I have stood in the way of their being able to help me. I feel a real weight has lifted, that I am truly not alone, I am never alone, and that all I need to is to grow my trust and faith, which automatically happens as I work through my fears and listen with my heart, and that not only am I supported in Love from God, but I am so supported in Love by so many thousands, at times of loving spirits!!!!!
Like any experience, it is personal, and we all need to experience our own for the lessons of Truth and Love to sink into our hearts and feel part of us then, and retelling the tale, seems to be intellectual in it’s telling. But I wanted to share my appreciation that the lessons come to us in so many joyful ways too!!! That when these joyful lessons are felt, the realisation of that when you are at-one with God, all of the Lessons of Truth and Love are gentle in their learning!
Please share some of your own, if you feel inclined!!!
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